these cosmic fish they love to kiss

all of my fic can be found by clicking on the following tags.

I wrote quite a bit of Boondock Saints stuff back in the day before i left the comm.

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JA: jensen ackles
JP: jared padalecki
underway: the underway meglong chapter thingy
sammy: sam winchester (spn)
dean: dean winchester (spn)
norman: norman reedus
sean: sean patrick flanery
connor: connor macmanus (bds)
murphy:murphy macmanus (bds)

question: is the writing i've been doing good enough to get me into a masters school?

also: any requests?

okay. i know that i'm not as bad as some people. there are people who, say, for example, let the kids they are teaching how to swim drown in the deep end while they are twirling in the shallow end. there are people who, say, for example, kill their dog after two weeks and then go right back out and adopt another one from a DIFFERENT county. i am not as bad nor as stupid as these people.

what i am is a) too trusting and b) too afraid of my own life.

a) when i trust you as a friend i tell you everything. well, everything about other people. i don't trust anyone with my personal shit. not really. i'm pretty sure if you knew any of my personal shit you'd run screaming in the other direction. this is because i am bat-shit motherfucking insane. no seriously. so, other than maybe eric and my parents like no one gets to see that side of me. and even they are only toeing the edge of a very deep and very wide lake of insanity.

but what it comes down to is, i trust you with the secrets i know even if they aren't my secrets. i expect that if i tell you that a certain someone definitely snorted three lines of coke last wednesday that you won't spread that shit around.

b) i am too afraid of the how mundane my own life is to think for even a minute of telling a personal story. i mean, i'll relate to you the funny shit that happened that one day when i drank 6 diet cokes and couldn't find a bathroom . . . but that's about as far as it'll go.

the thing is, i'm trusting the wrong people and i'm trusting too many people. it's going to be motherfucking hard but i have got to reign my shit in. no kidding people.

someone told me the other day that i gossip more than anyone she's ever met and that i can't possibly expect her to pretend she doesn't know the things i've told her. the thing is? i TOTALLY do. i mean, i really, totally do. and that is absolutely my fault.

now, i'm drowning in guilt because it's true. i gossip. jesus. i hear something interesting and i HAVE to repeat it. and that is what my friends are for. i repeat it to you and it gets sealed up in a friendship seal of silence. or so i thought. but, i get it. i'm obsessive and you're sick of hearing my gossip and the seal of silence doesn't actually exist.

i'm going to return to my pit of self-pity now and i'm going to make a promise i am sure to break: i will not repeat the story you told me when we were both drunk off so-co and diet coke. i will not repeat the story you told me when we were both drunk off so-co and diet coke and finally, i will not repeat the story you told me when we were both drunk off so-co and diet coke.

lo siento.

or a motherfucking twitter update.







your gf is riding my ass . . . pretty sure she'd be better use riding something else.

Torn From the Map, 3/? [NC17 overall] Dean/Sam, Dean/Ofc, xover Jericho

Title: Torn From the Map
Part: 2/?
Rating: R
Summary: Sam and Dean stop Lilith but the world ends anyways. Sam is facing a far more terrifying future, one in which Lucifer is not needed to create hell on earth. By his side, a quirky angel, a cranky sister-in-law and the town of Jericho, Kansas. Also, keep in mind that nothing is every final.
Pairing: Dean/OFC (so far), Dean/Sam, features Dean, Sam, OFC, all characters of Jericho
AN Supernatural XOver with Jericho
AN: I have created a post for notes and explanations as I go on. Mostly this is overly cautious, my hope being that the writing, if read, speaks for itself. Click Here: Torn From the Map: A Guide
Challenge: The challenge I was given Create a seamless cross-over between Supernatural and another T.V. show of choice while also adding a female character who fits the story line of both shows as they exist. Only minor canon tweaking is allowed.

Previous Chapters: Master Post

( Ad astra per aspera )

Birds Fly Backwards: The Revision
I am reposting this to the communities starting now because it is a new story. Same fun characters, entirely new plot.
Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (6/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R this chapter
Summary Dean faces down a choice and it’s like playing Russian roulette. . .
disclaimer: don’t own jack ‘cept the kids.
Feedback: is money.

Previous chapters: Master Post

( if i claim to be a wise man it surely means that i don`t know )

Birds Fly Backwards: The Revision

Chapter 1: gonna waste some time with you and let this world go

Chapter 2: I said Brother, you know you know\ Its a long road we`ve been walking on

Chapter 3: dust cloud coming off an old dirt road

Chapters 4 and 5: no you don`t need strength to be strong

Chapter 6: if i claim to be a wise man it sure means that i don`t know


Torn From The Map

The Guide: Can you follow me?

Chapter 1: It has been seven hours and fifteen days. . .

Chapter 2: Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

Chapter 3: Ad astra per aspera

BIRDS FLY BACKWARDS REDUX Yeah, that’s right. BFB, edited from the beginning and continued.

Birds Fly Backwards: The Revision
I am reposting this to the communities starting now because it is, after this chapter, a new story. Same fun characters, entirely new plot.
Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (4/?) and (5/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R this chapter
Summary What Johnny sees in the closet changes everything . . .
disclaimer: don’t own jack ‘cept the kids.
author’s note: i told myself I wouldn’t do this, but a good, if new, friend of mine, dared me. And if you’re irish you’re irish unless you’re texan and either way you can’t renick on a dare.
Feedback: is money.

Other chapters: Master Post

( no you don`t need strength to be strong )

Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (5/?)
AN: Plot changes ahoy!! The old BFB has been retired and the revision has begun full-force

( you tell me, what could you possibly say to make that okay? )

BIRDS FLY BACKWARDS REDUX Yeah, that’s right. BFB, edited from the beginning and continued.

Birds Fly Backwards: The Revision

Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (3/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R
Summary so sam and dean are working on being a family again with the new additions
author’s note: i told myself I wouldn’t do this, but a good, if new, friend of mine, dared me. And if you’re irish you’re irish unless you’re texan and either way you can’t renick on a dare.
Feedback: is money. where oh where have the commenters gone? where oh where could they be?

Other chapters: Master Post

( dust cloud coming off an old dirt road )

BIRDS FLY BACKWARDS REDUX Yeah, that’s right. BFB, edited from the beginning and continued.

Birds Fly Backwards: The Revision

Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (2/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: R this chapter
Summary Spoilers up to and including 2.21; After Sam does the Sam thing in 2.21 Dean moves on, finds himself missing his brother and raising a baby girl.
disclaimer: don’t own jack ‘cept the kids.
author’s note: i told myself I wouldn’t do this, but a good, if new, friend of mine, dared me. And if you’re irish you’re irish unless you’re texan and either way you can’t renick on a dare.
Feedback: is money.

Other chapters: Master Post


( I said Brother, you know you know\ Its a long road we`ve been walking on  )

BIRDS FLY BACKWARDS REDUX Yeah, that’s right. BFB, edited from the beginning and continued.

Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (1/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean, Dean/OFC (briefly)
Rating: PG-13-R this chapter, NC-17 later
Summary Spoilers up to and including 2.21; After Sam does the Sam thing in 2.21 Dean moves on, finds himself missing his brother and raising a baby girl.
disclaimer: don’t own jack ‘cept the kids.
author’s note: i told myself I wouldn’t do this, but a good, if new, friend of mine, dared me. And if you’re irish you’re irish unless you’re texan and either way you can’t renick on a dare.
Feedback: is money.

Other chapters: Master Post

( gonna waste some time with you and let this world go )

Running late.


I have a lot of unfinished business on the journal.


Sometimes I feel like closing up shop and starting over somewhere new; where my writing isn't known and where I don't have 30 people hanging on to different fics and waiting for an ending I can't see much less write.

I have become my own worst enemy on this thing.

So to Birds Fly Backwards and Tuesday fans. . . I'm still thinking of you, though you hvae long since moved on. And I'm trying, trying really hard to figure out where I wanted those pieces to go.

For now though, this cross over has my heart. Like Underway used to.

Torn From the Map, 1/? [NC17 overall] Dean/Sam, Dean/Ofc, xover Jericho

Title: Torn From the Map
Part: 2/?
Rating: R
Summary: Sam and Dean stop Lilith but the world ends anyways. Sam is facing a far more terrifying future, one in which Lucifer is not needed to create hell on earth. By his side, a quirky angel, a cranky sister-in-law and the town of Jericho, Kansas. Also, keep in mind that nothing is every final.
Pairing: Dean/OFC (so far), Dean/Sam, features Dean, Sam, OFC, all characters of Jericho
AN Supernatural XOver with Jericho
AN: I have created a post for notes and explanations as I go on. Mostly this is overly cautious, my hope being that the writing, if read, speaks for itself. Click Here: Torn From the Map: A Guide
Challenge: The challenge I was given Create a seamless cross-over between Supernatural and another T.V. show of choice while also adding a female character who fits the story line of both shows as they exist. Only minor canon tweaking is allowed.


( Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days )

Rating: NC-17 (Though PG this chapter)
Title: Torn From the Map
Summary: Let's start with 'I hate summaries' and end with: Sam and Dean stop Lilith but the world ends anyways.
Pairing: Dean/OFC (so far), Dean/Sam
AN Supernatural XOver with Jericho -- also, is a multi-faceted time jumping piece, so that, in one piece a character may be dead, but because of flashbacks, etc, is not actually dead from the story, and in fact, has an integral part play.
Challenge: The challenge I was given Create a seamless cross-over between Supernatural and another tv show of choice while also adding a female character who fits the story line of both shows as they exist. Only minor canon tweaking is allowed.

( It has been seven hours and fifteen days. . . )

i'm getting set to start my jericho/spn crossover and what do i hear?? they're making a jericho movie!!! with the orignal cast. pretty fucking sweet.

I just started watching Jericho and I totally regret not watching it sooner. Captivating.

Author: Buiochas_le_dia
Title: Birds Fly Backwards (14/?)
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: NC17
Summary a birthday party, a visit from grandpa and . . . CPS?
author’s note: It’s for you, my readers. Oh, and, FYI a little time has passed since the last one. Sam and Dean are settling in to being lovers again and Nina’s about to turn the big 0-5.
Feedback: is money.

( The next thing I remember )

the question is:

if i pick birds fly backwards back up . . . will anyone read it?

i am i am i am superman.